Maybe I’ve not been thinking straight. I mean, I’ll admit I’ve done worse things that even death itself could not handle. I’ve craved for worse things that anyone could ever wish for. Yea I’ll admit I’ve smoked weed. I’ve tasted clit before marriage. I’ve scrolled through porn hub and had impure thoughts. I’ve done immoral stuff and gone wild. I’ve betrayed and broken peoples hearts.

I’ve broken bonds and brought up raged secrecy within families. My body has been a condemnation of peoples tongues of my wages because of my actions. I’ve been a dirt factory where any whore would think she deserves better from me. I’ve led people astray.

I’ve killed/murdered some of those who never saw the face of the earth nor set foot in it, People who I never knew what they would be/become. I terminated and stopped their clean pure hearts. I’ve broken promises which have led to breaking of relationships. I’ve gone through the internet and visited sites that have led to the blockage of my caged pure thoughts which cant be unleashed unless the distortion of my deadly impure thoughts.

Some of the people who knew me dont know me and what I’ve become anymore. I’m just some garbage junk being pulled from one garbage truck to another. I still don’t know of my destination but pain blood and hell like fire can give a good description. I’ve drank what I shouldn’t have drank and done what I shouldn’t have done. I have done worse things that even the darkness is shy to let the light touch and the world know.

I don’t really think I deserve a second chance. I’m a disgrace to the humankind and an embarrassment to the human race. I’m aware that the wages of sin are death, but I think I’m beyond that and I don’t think I can hold them anymore. But for now I don’t need someone to judge me for what I’ve done or what I should have done. I only need someone who can get me back to track to show me the right way and guide me through the right path.